
Dear Keely,
So this is nothing terribly new here, but it is sorta. I have never spoken to you directly I think. I have certainly spoken to people who you were speaking to as well, but I am fairly confident that there was no overlap. That part isn’t new for the ol’ facebook, but what is new is that I have seen you in person countless times over many years. Yet, I have said nothing, or as close to nothing as I possibly could.
That being said here is kind of what you are to me (much of which has been validated in a few ways since we have become facebook friends and I have watched your news feed). You are kind of an idea / ideal. There is this thing I do (I really hope I am not the only one) where I watch someone from a far and start building this wholly internal storyline for them. Watching may not be an accurate term as it is more of an awareness of as opposed to a witness too. For years when you were with David and I saw you guys in the café it sort of blew my mind. It was one of those things you sometimes come across when wandering in the woods. You come across a group of animals by accident, freeze in your tracks, and kind of just marvel at seeing something in person that you had either only heard about, or see on The TV.
You guys were pretty effortlessly a couple for quite sometime, and I felt like things being how they are these days, it was something rather rare, singular even maybe. Now as I have said, this whole thing may have been conjured up in my idle, whirrlymagig mess of a brain, but I know no different really so that is what I saw.
I was never a huge fan of David, and I say this with a large amount of shame for that fact. He is by all accounts a pretty great guy (I mean literally no one ever said anything bad about him) but for some reason I just had a bone up my ass for him. He did date one of my exes, but really at that point it was a non-issue, and I think I may have dated one of his, but again, pretty sure it was a non-issue. But when I saw you two together, time and time again, I grew soft on the guy. I am still not buddy buddy with him, because lets be honest who the hell am I buddy-buddy with these days? But I do appreciate him more.
I know this is an awful lot of writing about your ex, but well in my head it is necessary back story for what comes next. Since you and Micheal have been together, it has been another one of those fairytale things, except this time I am actually privy (in a small facebook manner) to what is going on there in your life. I see the way you two interact, not only with eachother, but with other people. I watch that lightning-crackle back and forth that is common only between people who have a sincere and binding connection to one another. The new fantasy in my head in regards to you is the High-powered mutant cool/nerd kid you are about to make. One marvels at the sheer scope of nerd-dom this child will be exposed to, as if perhaps the birth is going to occur at a Comicon during the someodd anniversary of Star Wars right after they announce Firefly is going to be renewed and its special guest star will be the Mythbusters…yeah, like that, but more.
In any case I will sincerely miss watching the progression of this, but I really have no right to keep putting off the Unfriending. I am getting down to the half-way point, and probably should start to write more about people I have a history with, instead of people I have a fascination with.
In any case, I hope all goes well with the kid, and I swear if I see you guys out and about I will make an effort to actually make contact. That being said…
Today was a great day, but tomorrow our FBfriendship will end,
Curt
Ya know, I have way more facebook friends than needed, myself! It's kinda fun having a bunch of little fantasy friends, but I suppose playing Sims would be just as fun. Anyway, thanks for all the kind words, former facebook bud! I might, perhaps, see ya around :-)
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