Team Collegetown

Dear Andrea,

I think when I first started talking to you it all seemed possible. You were far away and all, and I definitely was drawn to you. Talking on the gchat, and email, and phone and all made me feel all warm and fuzzy. But I think the main thing that was going on in my head was I knew that if I were to have a chance with you I would have to be a far better man, or at least be willing to try.

It’s not that I thought that you thought I wasn’t good enough, it was that the more I knew about you the more my brain told me “the person I am now is not up to snuff for this”. This isn’t as tragically self-deprecating as it may sound. I am pretty ok with who I am, and think I have few things to offer. I think this speaks to how highly I hold you as a person instead.

You are one hell of a lady, and just ridiculously intelligent and beautiful. It always kind of felt like a juggling act when talking to you. I just kept thinking that at any moment there would be some obvious fuck up on my end and you would see the difference in elevation. This is all sounding pretty juvenile and high-schooly, so I am going to put that part of it to bed.

I would really like to see you in action at your chosen field. Being that the health care system, and more specifically the preventative medicine / grass roots care push is encountering so much resistance. You being a bright and obviously kind hearted person, you atleast have the right tools to make a dent in the mess.

I obviously have other means of contacting you if ever that feels like a good idea to you again, so this whole lack of fb won’t mean much (you don’t update much anyways). I greatly enjoyed our talks, and maybe at somepoint we can give it another go.

Today was a great day, but tomorrow our FBfriendship will end,

Curt